I’ve always heard how God will supply exactly what you need. It wasn’t until this cancer diagnosis that I really, truly, experienced this firsthand.

I will NEVER forget the ways my God has helped me.

I will NEVER forget how He sent the right people, at the right time.

It’s almost too many little miracles to type out. But I’m going to.

Because you see God is with me in my weeping, and he is with me in my rejoicing.

And today, I will rejoice.

And tell what the Lord has done!

All My Little Miracles

1. Physician sent me to ER instead of home. They caught my cancer. I would have been dead in a couple months otherwise. Literally.
2. My amazing husband– who has always been a force for positivity. God KNEW what he was doing when he put us together. Spencer is so strong. He’s had to be a rock for not only me, but our girls. Meanwhile, life goes on for him as he continues to teach middle school band and pastor the youth. He’s been with me every step, in every way he could. From organizing all my medicine, carrying me to the bathroom when I am unable to walk, sleeping on a cot in the hospital, bringing me food, nurturing our babies, shaving his head, and telling me how he wishes he could take my place. I love you, Spencer. We will be stronger after all of this. In sickness, and in health.
3. My mom, was able to take a leave of absence from her job. She took care of my babies when I couldn’t. I didn’t have to worry, because I knew they had my momma. She stopped her life completely to be there for me and my family, and I am eternally grateful. I’m sorry you’ve had to walk this road with me.
4. My big sister, Sarah, flew in and stayed with me for a week in the hospital. She was with me when I cut my hair. I wouldn’t have wanted any one else there by my side.
5. The super awesome wig of my own hair my sister bought me!
6. My friend Lindsey, who picked the girls up shortly after my doctor called me to go to Memorial Hospital ASAP. I was so scared, we had no answers, no idea of what was to come. But my girls got to be with some of their best friends that afternoon. They were distracted and having fun.
7. My brother drove up from Atlanta as we awaited my diagnosis on that dark Saturday. I was so scared they were going to give me months to live, and I wanted my mom and dad to have some support there. He was there.
8. My mother in law who was a rock for my girls and me during this time. She also spent the night at my house and cared for the girls when I couldn’t.
9. My father in law, a lymphoma cancer survivor, whose words and encouragement carried so much weight, because of what he had been through. He is 10 years post SCT and that is so encouraging to me.
10. Summer H. a coworker, swooped in and helped my daughter. She has taken her to school every day, brought her home, purchased everything she needed for the “12 days of Christmas” during her kindergarten year. I am eternally grateful.
11. My sister in law, Briana. Words can’t describe how much she has helped me and my babies. She’s watched the girls countless times, loving them, distracting them, and being a step-in momma for them. I never worry when my girls are with their Bri Bri. They can feel her love so deep.
12. My dad, who has been by my side through everything. He’s seen the good, the bad, the ugly. He’s seen me weep, he’s seen me sick. He’s driven me to every appointment. I’ve never had to be alone.
13. My principal (boss) is a cancer survivor. She has been so understanding. What are the chances of this!
14. My dad’s boss, who let him work remote this semester. I am so grateful. Eternally grateful. I’ve needed my daddy, and he has been able to be there.
15. The sleepovers Noelle had when my sister Sarah was in town. She took her shopping at Target, and stepped in when I couldn’t. My babies love you so much, Aunt Sarah.
16. The nurses and staff at Memorial in 4 East. Outstanding. The care, the love—I don’t have one single complaint. Berenice, Shaina, Molly, Mauriska, Angie, Heather, Ginger, Susan, Jess, Grace, Ellie, Jody, Melinda, Julia, Penny, Rosa, Melissa, Leslie, Rosa —- I am sure I am forgetting people—but all of you are incredible.
17. My first night in the hospital in Chattanooga, I had a nurse who spoke scriptures to me. She told me God had not given me a spirit of fear! She didn’t even know I was a believer.
18. My friend Emily, who visited me multiple times, and has loved me through all of it. She’s been such a blessing in my life, and I know she always has my back in prayer.
19. My cousin–Myra, who has been a sounding board for me. In so many ways. Her strength and trust in God inspires me every day.
20. Ms. Donna, my baby girl’s sitter. Haven has had consistency and love surrounding her every day since my diagnosis. Donna is a PRAYER WARRIOR, and always encourages me whenever she sees me. The Lord knew I needed her in our lives. I am so grateful.
21. My church family, Keith Street Ministries. Just thinking about all they have done for my family makes me weep.
22. Our pastor, who was the first one we told. He came immediately to the hospital when Spencer called him. He asked me what my favorite bible verse was, as we were sobbing. He spoke Psalm 23 over us. I am so grateful we had a pastor that we trusted and wanted to be there.
23. Noelle’s Kindergarten teachers, Mrs. Montgomery– and Mrs. Malone– they sent me pictures of my baby during the day. I KNOW they gave her extra TLC. They believed in her and helped her grow during the hardest season of her life. They even got a 5th grader help read her AR books during school, because I couldn’t.
24. Band/Music Families. It seems every Christmas concert during this time donated money to Spencer and I. It’s incredible.
25. Spencer’s co worker, Kelly, for always understanding when Spencer put me and the girls first. And the beautiful knit blanket she made for me.
26. My cousin, Madelyn, who brought us meals that first week and showered Noelle and Haven with toys!
27. The girls in my small group collected money and bought me new lounge wear from Target to wear in the hospital.
28. My friend, and cousin, Erin. Whose heart has been so beautiful to see for me in all of this. She collected money from our college friends and bought me a really nice lounge set. She’s been so amazing. I love you, Erin.
29. Lindsey, Brynn, Amanda, Tiffany– they all put up my Christmas tree and decorated my home when I couldn’t. I will never forget that. They also compiled Elf on the Shelf bags for Spencer to easily be able to do Elf on the Shelf. Thank you guys for pulling that off.
30. Whitney R. a coworker, made me and Noelle t-shirts with my bible verse on it! “I will live and not die and declare the works of the Lord.”
31. My cousin Hillary, who brought me the best care package and took the girls climbing one day! I know she’s prayed for me.
32. My dear friend and mentor, Kathryn– I can tell her anything. I’ve dumped so many of my cares and thoughts on her, and she always listens and understands. I admire her so much.
33. The amazing Hospitalists at Memorial—Melinda and Julia. They cried with me and rejoiced with me. They listened to all of my cares and concerns. They let my babies visit me even when it wasn’t really “allowed.”
34. My Aunt Lynn and Uncle Dave who let us stay with them when I had my appointment in Atlanta. I really needed them that day. They are the most hospitable people I have ever known. My deep depression that day didn’t scare them away. They sat with me in that.
35. My cousins Dale and Andrea. Who prayed prayers that penetrated the depths of my soul. I will never forget, I was so depressed, so dark, and my cousin Dale, who is a pastor, simply prayed “God help.” And he did. He helped me. It was such a simple, honest, and raw prayer.
36. My brother’s sweet girlfriend, Lili, who bought me a care package with a bracelet that talked about having a mustard seed of faith.
37. The text messages that came at the perfect time: Lindsey Stripling, Brie Maya, and Cara Rogers.
38. The Dwell Bible App Cara sent me. I listened to the Bible during some of my darkest and loneliest nights in the ICU because she had sent me that.
39. Missy Dasher– for all of her prayers and texts at the right time. She organized for women from our church to text me on the hour, every hour, one of the days of my lumbar punctures. She is always encouraging and believing in my miracle.
40. Amanda McDonald—for without fail—texting me every. single. day. for months. She sent me scriptures and words of encouragement when I could barely lift my head. She believed in my miracle before I could.
41. My Mom’s coworkers who took her to lunch and gave her a gift card for a massage. Thank you for loving my momma and helping lift her spirit during such a horrible, horrible time.
42. My Park View Elementary Family— they collected money, gift cards, cards–even though I had only been there a couple of months. They filmed the kid’s Christmas concert, and got me a framed photo with all the kid’s signatures!!!
43. Beth Hooker and my Taylor Elementary family—they collected money and cards for me as well. I worked there for 7 years, and it so touched my heart that they would still think of me. Taylor will always have a special place in my heart. I love you all.
44. My friend Kristin, who cooked us meals and cleaned my entire house so I could home from the hospital to a clean house. She also watched the girls several times while I was hospitalized.
45. Hannah Jarman, who has been an angel in disguise. She helps me at my house, but more than that she speaks the truth in love to me always. She is such a blessing to me.
46. To my girls, Noelle and Haven, who truly give me the strength to keep fighting every day. Momma is doing this for you, my darling ones.
47. Dr. Jaff –for realizing I was septic and calling an ambulance instead of sending me home. I was in ICU for several days. She helped save my life.
48. My amazing therapist, Melody, for believing in me and listening to me. I’m grateful for all the tools she has taught me.
49. To the nurses at TN oncology– Dee and Ashley– they treat me with such great care and always put a smile on my face–somehow.
50. To Sarah Burris and all the elementary music teachers who thought of me and dedicated the 10th Honor Choir concert to me.
51. Pristinely Polished–house cleaners who gave me two free house cleanings in December.
52. Aunt Rozan — who helped clean my house, collected money for Spencer and I to get a massage.
53. My cousin Derrick, who bought Noelle and Haven a bouncy house for our house!
54. My cousin Dara– a cancer survivor. Who has prayed for me, encouraged me, and gave me a beautiful and meaningful gift!
55. My friend Milly, who has consistently sent me scriptures and encouragement. She’s visited me in the hospital and came Christmas caroling to our house!
56. Our neighbors, who have mowed our grass countless times. Thank you.
57. Center for Cosmetic Dentistry- who gave my family and I free cleanings and filled in a cavity of mine for free.
58. The 27,000 thousand dollars you all have donated to our Go Fund Me. I mean, to the DIME, provision has been made for us. Wow.
59. The meal train our KSM family did for us. I am so behind on thank you cards, but thank you to each and every one of you.
60. Jamie Kyle–for sending Spencer clothing!
61. Ariana Medina for keeping me in the loop in her life even when I wasn’t around. I’m so proud of you and honored to watch God’s plan for your life unfold.
62. Evan, Abdiel, and David who bought me a Christmas present–ugg boots!
63. All the KSM youth kids for loving Spencer and I through this.
64. Jason Dasher for stepping in and speaking when Spencer couldn’t.
65. Carrie Dasher for texting me encouragement when I needed it.
66. Leslie Green, for coming over and bringing my girls a gift that first week. For carrying my babies in your heart and praying for us.
67. Shelly Wilbanks, for sharing her cancer stories with me and inviting me to be on her Relay for Life team.
68. My dear friend, Claire, who has sent me gifts and asked me what I needed. For making me laugh even when nothing should have. For sharing my story with others.
69. My sister’s fiancé, Travis, for supporting her and letting her come see me whenever she needs to.
70. Travis’s Mom, Shirley, for sending us money and my girls some children’s books.
71. Codie Burns—for the wigs, the gift, and encouragement. She’s amazing and such a positive force in this world.
72. The LaDuke family— the gifts, cards, love, visits, prayers– its all touched me so deeply.
73. My friends Heidi and Carissa– for the prayers and letting me vent
74. Our Lakeview COG Family– for loving us and checking on us–and sending us money.
75. Kody and Kristy Fox and Temple Baptist Church– visiting us, praying for us, mowing our lawn..
76. My Uncle Ron — encouraging me after his own battle with cancer
77. Karen Winters–for speaking an encouraging word to me at the oncology center!
78. Renee Cain, my pastors wife–for her love, prayers, meal, and being a sounding board for me.
79. ALL of the Varlacks— I haven’t known you all very long, but the care and concern for me and my family has truly touched me.
80. My oncologist, Dr. Anz, for his genuine care and honesty. He is a great doctor!!
81. The IV Nurse, Lisa, who shared with me her own Leukemia story and testimony when I needed it. She had no idea—but God did. I was so discouraged that day. But she prayed for me and with me.
82. Regina Broach for giving me one of her books and always sharing my story.
83. Sister Joy from church who blesses us time, and time again financially.
84. Katelyn Dasher, who visited me on HER birthday and brought joy to my soul when I was lonely.
85. To my childhood friends–Lindsey, Erin, Desi, Amanda, Claire, Brittany– who all took up money and bought plastic and paper wear for my house right after I was diagnosed.
86. The stranger who paid for me and my mom’s Cracker Barrell
87. The stranger who paid for my manicure
88. Aunt Rachie and Aunt Rozan who got me a gift card to get my nails done for my birthday. Who collected money and bought us massages
89. Aunt Jo, who was texted and prayed for me when I couldn’t pray for myself.
90. Our small group, for putting on the Super Bowl party at our church so Spencer didn’t have to.
91. Jonathan Jarman, for helping clean our house so many times, and pruning my beautiful hydrangeas. We love you.
92. My cousin Jane–for her wisdom and words when I needed them!
93. My cousin Lyndsey, for sending me a gift card
94. My cousin Andrea–for sending us money and hosting Christmas at her house.
95. My cousin Robbie and his wife Audrey — for their love and offering to do WHATEVER we need.
96. My neighbor, Ms. Betty, who hugged my mom on a very dark day.
97. Jennifer Dailey–for being a great nurse on that day, in that room. I felt so loved by God that you were my nurse that day.
98. Coach Cowell—my daughter’s gym teacher and my coworker. For sending me videos of my baby when I couldn’t be there at school with her.
99. To Paul and Darlia Conn, who sent us a card and gift card, Dr. Thomas, Dr. Bailey and the Symphonic Band– and so many other staff from Lee
100. To our dear friends who offered us a free beach vacation…no words.
101. Brittany Cantrell, for her words of life and bold prayers when I needed it.
102. Laura George– going with me to grief counseling.
103. All of my Westmore COG family past and present. For praying for me and my parents.
104. The “staff” at KSM who let me share testimonies and prayer requests constantly on our thread. I love each of you!
105. Jeff Young, who sent us 200 in door dash the week of my diagnosis.
106. Matt Jones– who checks in on my husband frequently. You’ll never know how much this means to him.
107. Linda Williamson–who sent me a bible verse post it notes to put all around my home.
108. The local church who provided Christmas for my family. They shopped, paid for, wrapped, and delivered presents to our home.
109. The Dillard family–who donated money to us–just days before they were tragically killed
110. My childhood pastor, Phil Bagrow–who sent us money and prayers
111. My friend Claire’s mom, Vickie, who sent us money
112. Rita Ready and the Westmore Music Academy– gifting Noelle free piano lessons while we got back on our feet.
113. The WVHS Chamber Choir who sang on Valentine’s Day as I was getting chemo.
114. My cousin Krystal, who has without fail, sent me almost DAILY a card in the mail with a scripture and words of encouragement. Incredible.
115. The countless comments, and words of encouragement I get from all of my Facebook friends and family. Thank you to each of you. If you are reading this, then you have a part and hand in my story.

Thank you all, for being the hands and feet of Jesus.